Camino Reflections. My personal spiritual experience on the Camino.

I did not have one huge spiritual awakening upon arriving to Santiago, but I did achieve everything I set out for am more. Thanks to many physical injuries while on the Camino, I learned that no matter what obstacles I endure I will always be okay and things are not that bad. I will especially be okay in everything I do when following my heart. In life many things do not come easy which makes achieving them that much more rewarding. Life is full of struggles and pain, its how we chose to see it and deal with it that makes all the difference. Everywhere along the Camino are taxi signs and bus routes. At any point you can get your stamp for the day and cab it to the next hostel. The Camino taught me to not always take the easy way out and struggle can be well worth it in the end. A lesion for my love life. Years ago I stopped dating all together telling myself I was waiting for "someone special" or was just to "busy" to date. I know now that I was taking the easy path of no resistance. The path that kept me from getting hurt. Love like the Camino is hard but worth every step. Being on the Camino did not make me feel closer to god, though the feeling of thousands of years of history was unmistakable. Upon arriving in Santiago I was overwhelmed with emotion and cried through the entire Pilgrims Mass. I have never felt so close to organized religion and its beliefs in my life. During the Mass I felt an odd sense of completeness and love. I made a point of visiting St James' Tomb while in Santiago. The reason for thousands of years of pilgrim's and my personal/physical struggles over the past 14 days. When I got to the tomb I was underwhelmed to say the least. Simply a gold bust of the saint. I hiked all the way for this? Is this even him? Is there even any remains here? I asked a few fellow pilgrims their take on the tomb and the overwhelming response was "faith" you "just believe". This concept was foreign to me. As a NICU nurse I see gods existence as black and white proof everyday. The concept of "just believing" brought tears to my eyes. I have to have faith and believe I will find love, have a family and be okay in life. I may have zero proof such things are obtainable but I need to have "faith". I need to believe with all my heart. They say the Camino makes you more simple and teaches you how little you truly need to survive. This lesion I learned long ago in efforts to save money for world travel. I wouldn't say I learned to be more simple but I did learn the priceless value of the simple things like; health, friendship and balance. With all my ailments along the way I learned to appreciate my health, my body and all it is able to do for me. 90% of the time I hiked alone but everyday the value of friendship on the Camino was apparent. I was blessed to meet many awesome pilgrims from all over the world, who truly inspired me to keep going. The simplicity the Camino taught me was that I don't always have to be saving for another great adventure overseas. I can have great adventure here at home. I was hoping time on the Camino would help me to grieve and forgive my brother. At the rock mountain, with a rock in hand from my childhood home. I told the universe I forgive. Though I didn't believe it myself, I at least put it out there to the universe. The burden of guilt would be left there with my rock. At the pilgrims mass every word was in Spanish except a few powerful words spoken clearly in English during the closing prayer. "Forgive those who have lost their way". After hearing this I began to cry uncontrollably. The first time I have allowed myself to cry. At that time I knew it was time to forgive and move on. The burden of guilt and shame was lifted and I was free. I can hold my head high again. In conclusion I learned pain in unavoidable however suffering is optional. I chose not to suffer. I chose to live heaven here on earth. I chose to have "faith".

Packing for The Camino: 20 must haves

With my Camino 50 days away I have finalized my "packing list" necessities for Camino survival. 1. Good hiking backpack fitted by a professional. This the most expensive idem on the list, expect to spend $160-200 on this necessity. 2. Good hiking shoes that are waterproof ($100-$200) 3. Hiking sandals with closed toe for blocking sand and rocks. A life saver for sore blistered feet while hiking. ($100-$150) 4. Hiking socks made of synthetic material that keeps feet dry, I chose wool. ($10-$20 each) 5. Sleeping liner. I chose a bedbug sleeping liner over a sleeping bag. This was a personal choice based on the time of year. ($30) 6. Flip Flops for the shower and changing into after hiking. ($5-$10) 7. Wilderness wash. This 3ml bottle of concentrated wash can be used for everything from body to clothes or dishes. Bottle is airline approved. ($8.75) 8. Solid Shampoo bar. I chose a sulfate free ideal for died hair. ($10) 9. Organic Bed bug spray. because its organic pillows and blankets as well as the bed can be sprayed before use. ($6.99) 10. Silk pillow case. I read somewhere that bed bugs don't like silk. Stuff pillow with soft clothes from your pack to make a pillow. ($10) 11. Ear plugs for droning out noisy sleepers in the hostels. ($5) 12. Small flash light for finding the bathroom in the dark hostel. ($2-$5) 13. Head lamp for early morning and night walking. ($20-$30) 14. Quick dry microfiber towel. After showering the material will dry quickly and can be placed back in your pack. I had a hard time finding one big enough, so I actually wound up with a yoga towel. ($20-$30) 15. Poncho big enough to cover your pack. My pack came with a built in rain cover so a regular poncho will do.large ponchos are considerably more expensive($10-$50) 16. Hat for blocking sun ($10) 17. Sunglasses. obviously price will vary based on personal preference. (I paid $15) 18. Sunblock. I have sensitive skin so I purchased a silver nitrate sunblock. ($10) 19. European adaptor for electronics. ($10) 20. 3 dryfit gym outfits. Dry fit will keep you comfortable while hiking and will dry quickly to be placed back in the pack after washing. I know nothing about distance hiking but I know what's comfortable for me while at the gym or running. A personal preference based on past experiences.

Preparing for The Camino

Without knowing it I have been preparing spirituality, mentally and physically for the Camino for years. Since that first trip overseas alone. For two and a half years, I have been on this spiritual journey. Discovering my authentic self, and spirituality by leaving my comfort zone. Exploring new land and culture while also finding myself. These experiences are what have lead my heart to The Camino. Adventures of the past few years have taught me so much, while also accidently leaving me dateless and celibate. Not intentionally Just ran out of time in the day for dating. Having my head and heart clear of boy drama, has added in my self discovery and spirituality. Which can only be an asset on the Camino. As for physical preparation, I feel I am in good enough shape for the walk. I work 13hr shifts on my feet as a nurse, have ran and walked half marathons and play competitive sports. However I never did any of these things with a 20 pound pack on my back. Therefore I joined the local Crossfit gym a few months before to work on core and upper body strength. The strength and stamina gained at Crossfit can only help on the Camino. I never expected to love Crossfit, but that's a whole other blog post. As for mental preparation I have been reading everything Camino Including guide books, blogs and step by step accounts by authors whom have done the walk. Less than ideal lodging on past trips overseas has added in the transition to staying in pilgrim's hostels. Over packing on previous trips has prepared me mentally for living out of a backpack with only bare necessities. I am better versed on what I truly need. Unlike others on the Comino, this journey isn't a starting point to clarity it serves as a ending point to years of soul searching. I may never be done searching but when I reach Santiago I will be that much closer.

The first 10 places you should travel to get your feet wet

Many travel bloggers write about going to where the locals go, exploring off the beaten path and even calling tourist spots "cliché". In my opinion these cliché attractions are a must for the new traveler. I can only write about what I know, and where I have been. I am not sponsored, being paid or traveling with my own photographer. I am a full time nurse whom saves tirelessly to the point of fault to travel. The first ten places I traveled were cliché and chosen from the heart. I am grateful I chose these places to get my feet wet in the world of travel. They have the advantage of having other tourists to befriend as well as lots of English speaking locals. Yes they can be busy and expensive but you are safer and when you get that cliché picture it makes it all worth while. As an American girl under five feet, traveling alone, I feel these tourist traps are my safest bet. I too crave that Anthony Bourdain experience, however I am not a six foot tall man traveling with a production company. I travel with a group or stay in youth hostels in tourist areas. My advice is to visit any ten places your heart draws you to. With these ten under my belt I am more educated and versed in international travel to start venturing out more on my own. Its such an awesome feeling to see a place you've been looking at in pictures since childhood. Especially if like me, you didn't even leave your state until your late 20's. The ten must see places to get your feet wet are as follows, in no particular order. 1). London England They speak English and the country is full of history. All of us Americans, Canadians and Australians all originally came from London. Making the history especially interesting. England is also central to all the other awesome European destinations. 2). Paris, France. Every girl dreams of going to Paris, the most romantic place on earth.... You learn quickly thy are rude and don't care for the tourists much but still a good experience. Paris was the first place I learned to never admit to being "American". 3.) Rome, Italy: Great food, the Coliseum, Roman Form. What more could you want. 4.) Pisa In the middle of nowhere with nothing else to do. That cliché picture holding up The Leaning Tower is the only reason you go. Fun fact also the best Mc Donalds you will ever eat. Yes its true us Americans love our Mc Donalds. 5.Venice Possibly the biggest tourist trap of them all, however a must see. Gondola rides, Marino glass, and Venetian masks. A story all your friends will be jealous of for sure. 6.)Florence, Italy My favorite city in all of Europe thus far. History, pleasant locals, easy to get around on foot, and don't forget the David and wine!!! 7).Athens, Greece Roman Ruins, Greek Mythology, and the fattest stray animals in the world. Don't forget the infamous Greek islands are only a ferry ride away. 8). Mykonos, Greece Known as the island for the young and the "party" island. Despite the stigma of being a party island its my favorite of all the Greek islands. beautiful beaches and top notch hotels on the water. Its also one of the closer islands to Athens making it easy to get to. 9). Paros, Greece A more laid back and chill island, a bit cheaper than other more popular islands. 10). Santorini, Greece Possibly the most beautiful place I have ever seen outside of my dreams. The sunset is a bucket list must.

The completion of # 9,16 & 20 of my bucket list 35 things before turning 35.

This Christmas I turned the dreaded 32 years young and by new years had three more items checked off my epic bucket list. #9). Ice Skate in Rockefeller Center at Christmas Time: On my first visit to New York city, the main attraction was the Rockefeller Center tree its self and I never ice skated while there. The wait was long and at the time didn't deem it important enough to endure the wait in the cold. Upon coming home I regretted not having the experience of ice skating in such a beautiful festive environment. On New Years day on kind of a spur of the moment thing, my friend and I decided we were going to do it. The wait was longer and colder than expected but well worth it. We made friends with the people in front of us and the little girl in front of them and we all skated together. We skated together hand and hand five people wide with our new friends. The ice skating itself was short lived because its quite hard and painful. non the less we had an awesome time. while skating I took several chances just to look up and take it all in. The clean crisp smell of the ice, and view of the center from the rink, I will never forget. At the end of the trip my friend and I both agreed it was the highlight of the trip. Even if we were hung over and sleep deprived from new years festivities the night before. #16). Ring in the New Year in Times Square, NY.<b> For as long as I can remember its been a secret dream of mine to spend New Years in Times Square. I never dreamed it would ever come true. You hear horror stories about waiting in the cold and I would have to find someone just as crazy as myself to go with me. When I learned my good friend in Australia also had the same vision and had even booked the trip I knew it was meant to be. I booked the same trip that day. It meant a lot to me to see my friend while she was in the states and this was icing on the cake. The trip came with VIP tickets to an open bar, buffet party one block away from the ball drop. The energy of the people waiting all day in the cold was contagious and the confetti flew for days after. The energy could only be described by, energy of the fans at an important game as your team wins. like seeing your team win the super bowl in person. #20). Ride in a helicopter. As long as I can remember I have wanted to ride in a helicopter. The idea exciting but the reality scared the crap out of me. its not the height that scares me its the blades. Comical fear considering I am under five feet tall but a fear none the less. In my field of nursing its a huge selling point to have NICU experience and they are always looking for flight nurses. Once again my fear of the blades chopping my head off kept me from perusing such a career path. I knew it was a silly fear and one ride would cure me and have me hocked. The hours leading up to the flight was tense but the two hour wait in line cured any nerves. The tour flew over the Statue of liberty, and the NYC skyline. What an awesome experience. I am so glad I didn't let my fears keep me back. It wasn't scary at all. #